Mourning Bands: Are they the new addition to police uniforms?

It sickens me to the core to write once again that an officer has died.

Deputy Kent Mundell died today at Harborview, surrounded by family and friends as he was taken off life support after being shot several days ago. Deputy Mundell is the 6th, yes 6th officer to have died in 2 months, and let me say this, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

Its a numbing feeling to hear of such news, especially after a painful 2 months, particularly as a police wife. As much as such events sadden me, I must admit that they're starting to bring out more and more rage. I'm somewhat comforted knowing that Deputy Mundell killed the person who shot him. One less bastard out amongst us. Washington state doesn't tolerate cop killers. I'm not a very violent person, but if someone were ever to take a shot at Matt or someone I know and love, you can bet that I'd be first in line to shoot right back. (and yes, I'm a good shot)

I feel helpless in situations such as these. I've attended a funeral, I've donated money to the families, yet I feel like I'm not doing enough. There continues to be a part of me that would love a chance to put the uniform on and protect and serve like Matt does, but its not realistic for our lives and our plans to start a family sooner rather than later. Although its getting ahead of ourselves, its a scary thought, bringing a child into the world where there's so much police violence going on. The thought of telling a little one that Daddy's not coming home is a sickening one.

I try my best to remain REALISTIC, which is proving to be harder than I thought. The REALITY is, I'd drive myself and others crazy if I thought that each day would be our last. I trust Matt's police skills and I trust those of his coworkers. Each day he comes home is a blessing, hell, each day any of us come home safe and sound is a blessing. We could get hit by a car crossing the street.

I hope that this is the last police death posting I do for a very long time, I can't say for certain that it'll be the last. I didn't think I'd do one again. My hope is that police continue to do their jobs, serving and protecting. I hope 2010 is a safe year for officers everywhere. I hope the families of the fallen officers find some kind of peace, but most of all, I hope this doesn't happen again.

Justice will be served.